I NEED HELP

shannon, is this really happening to you right now? You sounded so great yesterday or the day before. I am not sure if this is a story or you are speaking of reality right now. I hope you are okay. I am worried about you. I will be praying for you shannon. love, jen

Shannon - you are loved and you are not alone.  I'm lighting a candle for you and sending prayers.

Love,
John

Dearest Shannon,

You are experiencing “hangover.”  With serious addiction, hangover includes not just the physical after effects of drugs/alcohol, but all kinds of social and legal consequences.  These do pass with time.  This may also be part of hitting bottom, which, trust this process, is very important for you, and again, is temporary.   Others may not understand what you are going through and you may have temporarily lost the trust of your family, but with your recovery, this will return.  I will keep in touch and comment again soon.

All in One Love,

Doug

Focus on the reminding yourself that you are already whole; the “need to be healed” is just an illusion, and will pass. 

Breathe.

It's time to stop being codependent– upon whatever you choose to focus your dependency upon.  Each one of us is whole and complete–each one of us is God. 

Focus on the God energy and Light energy that lives inside of you, that truly is you–by remembering that the only things that are real are Light and Love.  And Light and Love are one and the same.  Therefore, that is what you are.  What I am–what we all are–for we are all One–whole, complete, and divine. 

All else is illusion.

Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe.

Shannon,
You are great to being doing your very best.  As Doug said, addition is a tough thing to break.  It was for me.  Try to look with hope beyond these difficulties as change is inevitable.  Please keep your faith in a future filled with joy.  We can only send you these kind words, but know that they come from our hearts, hearts that are in pain when your heart is in pain, and glad when you are glad.  We do love you.  Keep coming here, as you can and as you need to, because it is HERE and NOW that you recognize that you are really loved.  You are not alone but held in our hearts.

I hold you in my heart with
Peace, Love and Joy -
John  ;-D

Darren, stop calling her “beloved” that's getting creepy and annoying dude.

Part of me wants to say “Don't listen to anyone here……including myself”

I hope you're not using again. There's a difference between having some rough patches and this wild up and down ride you're on and I think that's the concern here. Perhaps you can stay with your dad for longer. This “boyfriend” is certainly gone so that won't happen again. I don't see what needing a computer has to do with this. And I don't understand how “the cops stole your car”. To get to detox you take a bus or train, or any other method you can use. Maybe they'd send a car for you, I don't know.

But this ride has to end. Imagine life without this bad ride. You deserve it.

You'd be at my house were I nearby.  Much love and hugs to you dear precious woman and the stamina and desire to get to a better place in life. You CAN choose to do that. Believe that it can only be better. 
I haven't got punched in the face, but I've been beaten with a club by an ex who was strung up on angel dust. It sent me to rock bottom, or so I thought, but it actually sent me to soar.  May you also find the wind to carry you up.
lovingly
Anna

Hey Shannon,

You know what?  This is when you really gotta want it.  Fee said it.  You need detox - bus, train, whatever.  I'm glad you're at your Dad's house and hopefully you can stay a little longer than just tonight.

I'm sorry to hear about the incident with your boyfriend and I hope he's out of your life now.

Just focus on you, use that strength within you to do whatever you have to.  This is a wild ride in your life right now, but it will pass.  DEEP BREATHS

PEACE