What do you like best about being with others?

Hi, Shannon,

Just one minute and then I am off to work. 

Attending regular AA and NA meetings, and getting a sponsor, means that I am NEVER ALONE.  I have a Higher Power, but I am not here to discuss Him, or Her today. 

What I have when I attend meetings is the fellowship of Other addicts and alcoholics and what I want to mention is the physical real World presence of the recovery fellowship.  At meetings, I can share and relate on a daily basis with men and women who have similar backgrounds to my addiction and  similar viewpoints and experiences with regard to MY recovery.  I'm not EVER alone because I can actually physically go and have coffee with another addict, or I can go to a ball game, or a movie, or a rodeo.  In the last resort, I can always show up at MY sponsor's house and just beg and whine.

I just have to pick up the phone and call another addict.

I know that many people on this site are in recovery.  So as far as I am concerned: As long as I am around, YOU are never alone here!

Love to you and don't pick up TODAY – no matter what.  RicHIe

in time you will be surrounded with like energy.  meetings are a great place to start!
love and light to you,
shirley

Shannon…

“…it gets lonely in a world of books and prayer. But Im never alone because God is with me.”

Prayer is of comfort to me. Always remember, you are NEVER alone if you believe.
The lyrics in a song that always comforts me…

“When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.”

If you let HIM, HE will always come and sit with you and you are always able to give your problems to HIM.

Group therapy is of great help, if you are not currently involved in one. Since you are able to speak from your heart, a group may be very helpful for you.

Love & Light,
*Snow*Moon*

Hi Shannon,

I am proud of you for diving so deeply into Zaadz.  You have shared your heart with courage and love, and this community is yours for the loving.  You are an example to all of us, that healing comes from sharing, and courage comes from community.

I will say a prayer for your healing everyday, and look forward to feeling your energy on Zaadz.

Dave

Oh, my new found sister,
It has been some 30 years since I got off H & C - I shudder thinking about it now.  It was when I was in high school, taking care (or not taking care) of myself, at age 15-16.  But you know, I wouldn't give anything for that experience because of what I can say to you now.  It gets better, especially around people who will support the best in you, and who want the best for you, who feel and suffer with you.  Shit yeah it's hard.  I did it with just the help of my friends.  I felt physically terrible for about 3 months and then this determination just rose up in me from source I guess.

So, I agree with TextMage - We are here for you, whatever it may mean.  You have the opportunity now to create something new and fresh in your life and I know you'll do it.  Keep reaching out and it will come to meet you.  Also, be very careful not to go back to the things that support your addiction - the people, the places, etc.  I remember trying to be friends with my old drug friends when I got clean and they all said I was boring.  But you know, the fact is, they were boring because that's all they were into, doing drugs and more drugs.  You can use this rich experience to help others as well.  I haven't done it formally, but like right now, I'm able to speak from experience and that means something to people who have gone through something, to understand from experiece what they went through.

I will hold you in my heart and awareness each day with

Peace, Love and abundant Joy -

Your new friend,
Satya

Bless you for having the courage to share your journey with all of us here at Zaadz. As you continue to share your heart and LOVE with others not only will you heal,but you will assist others in their healing.  Continue to do the work that is required of you within and you will begin to attract the liked minded souls that you desire to have in your life. I'm sure there are many local groups that get together in your area. It doesn't have to just be an AA group
although this would be very beneficial to you. Perhaps a group that has metaphysical  discussions or a group that meditates or chants together.  I've shocked others for many years because of my openness now I know that it's ok to speak from your heart in fact it's required for the soul's growth.  :-)

Much LOVE,
Lisha

I will say one thing Shannon, people don't know how to take me sometimes. The way you describe yourself is like a woman I knew once. A very powerful intense woman who always spoke her mind, and was always willing to share her heart. Yes, sometimes it got her into trouble. But she knew she had to be herself.

Some day you may learn to relate to people who aren't so open (heck, I've had a breeze of a life in comparison to what it seems you've been through, and I'm still learning everyday). You may be able to someday say “OK, I can still be me but reach them on their level”. But first things first, look after yourself first. Do what you feel is right, and you'll feel where your limits are, and where you are most comfortable, and what brings you the most joy in the long term.

I wish you the best in finding kindred spirits. I live in a spiritually dead, emotionally barren town, I know as well as anyone, they're not easy to find…but they exist. I assure you :)

You are doing great. Keep it up. Be proud of yourself and yet humble. Everyone will come around, just give them time.

i was not going to leave a comment after reading all of these responses …. I have nothing, not an experience of chemicals, that can possibly make me understand. What i do know is that my heart swells when i read your words! It is admirable, the determination you have to “make it right”. And you are braver and more interesting than any of the chemicals you leave behind! Kudos to you!

and Peace & light,

Hi Shannon

Your statement  “People dont know howw to take me” they just don't understand me, because I am different, this is common thinking,. We all have that in us; this is what we have to work on. We are not that important, other people do not have to understand us. We have to understand ourselves and our role in the big picture.

I am happy you are finding help at Zaadz, and stay off the mind altering substances.

Nick